Will he return to me!?!?!?

Wow rose! Hate yourself much? Really, this guys a kiddo by the VERY nature of how he is treating you, and you think you deserve that? Wow, are you like 300 pounds, buck-toothed, 3-eyed, one-legged, freck of nature? Cause if not you have NO right to treat yourself this way. YOU have NO F'IN RIGHT to whorship this guy!!! Your wasting yourself away, for what? Love that this man doesn't even show you? What so you can marry him someday and he can neglect you even better? Really your going down a path thats going to end with a breck-wall and your broken heart. I can't pull you out of the cage you've built around you, no one can, but I'll tell you this, its all because you love him more then yourself, makes you a wonderful survant, a horrible person, atleast to yourself..... no offense, I just look at your problem and can't help but FEEL, what a waste, what a waste..... just realize too, no matter how much you love him, its still not going to replace the love you don't show yourself, just realize, you live closer to your heart then he ever well.....